Micaela's AP Blog

The unknown can always seem a bit controversial in a multitude of ways. There are constant instances of what is unknown to us. As people we are advancing yet there is still such a broad surface that we have only scratched. The onceans, space and other phenomena still have to be explored to greater extents. I sometimes find myself going into deep thought of these things. Grasping what we are and live in is much more amazing than what we take it to be. Death and the afterlife wander in my thoughts at times. These are the things of the Unknown that may scare us or maybe intrigue us. The unknown will never be fulfilled as more than what it is, unknown. There will always be something not known in humanity.

The act of gathering together during mealtime is a very important thing. Mealtime is something that bring many families or friends together daily. This could also be at any time of the day for the most part. In a lot of instances there is always a hearty amount of people present for this time. Mealtime can be like a commute in a family gathering or a simple dinner. This gives the opportunity for a family to talk with one another and enjoy each other’s company. Whether there is talk about one’s day. Storylines,or general bonding ;mealtime brings great value to people of all backgrounds.

Grant felt an ease of mind and tackled his visit with Jefferson head on. This is definitely from the seasonal happenings and Vivian’s company. He spoke with Paul, the security guard and learned much of what goes on at the jail and Jefferson’s actions. During this point I feel that Grants words may have taken some point into Jefferson. After a long time of him being disrespectful to Grant and he gets angry. He states his only reason for keeping the visits is because of Vivian. After he is on his way out the sheriff noted the plans of Ms.Emma, Tante Lou, and the reverend for the next visit to jefferson. I feel there may be a different atmosphere not due to a new setting but because of Grant’s words. Throughout all this the sheriff and Grants conscience both agree that there is not progress being made.

Vivian has visited Grant at his home. They spent much time talking about one another’s lives and the neighborhood of the town. It is showing that their relationship is starting to grow. They both met back with Ms.Emma, Tante Lou and their other church associates at home. There is a tension due to Grant and Vivian’s prescience. After some time they women show that they like Vivian. They may even think that she’s too good for Grant and he will effect her negatively. Since Vivian has mentioned it, Grant planned a Christmas program with his kids at the school. He said for them to remember somebody this season, this could possibly be about Jefferson. Later ass the day went on Ms.Emma confronted Grant saying how he lied about what Jefferson has done and said. She and he others who visited him had first accountancy of his games he has been playing in his cell with his talk of being a big. He also still had showed blankness and just no emotion at all. All of this caused Ms Emma to slap him. It...

Sunday’s were an interesting time for Grant. Being that he was and has been a non believer for years now brought conflict to his life. He reminisced on the Friday once he got back home. He was finally forced to speak up about Jefferson. He told half truths to Ms.Emma which seemed to enlighten her only slightly.  Meanwhile Reverend Ambrose wanted felt that God should have been brought up to Jefferson as he is “about to meet him”. They will bring a bible to him on his next visit. It seems that Vivian May have had a change of mind and gave Grant a visit at home.

Grant continued on his daily vist to Jefferson alone. Jefferson was different this day. He spoke more and showed surprising facial expressions. He only refers to himself as a hog, even to go as far as demonstrating how hogs eat. Grant left and had to bring news to Ms Emma about Jefferson. This was hard for him due to the fact of that he did not want to hurt her anymore than she already has. He takes a trip to the rainbow club to regather his thoughts and figure out what to do. Later he visits Vivian at her school to speak with her. Going to Bayonne to see her may be his outlet to his problems; he gains an extra false hope from this.

The fourth day of visiting Jefferson came quickly but there was a change. Ms. Emma was “sick” and no longer able to come leaving Grant alone in this journey. He had finally reached a closing point where his feelings were overbearing. He was tired of being humiliated by whites around him in almost every way possible. All the trouble he’s gone through just to please Ms. Emma and his aunt he felt was not worth so. He continues to say that everything his aunt taught him about living and not turning into the “nigger” he was born to be had only brought him closer than ever before.